Friday, March 28, 2014

The bill

She unlocked the car and saw the bills on the seat. Thinking he'd forgotten them she bought them to her work desk and asked him if he needed them. He answered in the negative telling her it was past office timings and it wouldn't be possible to pay them then.
When he dropped her home, she asked him if he'd keep the bills. He said she could keep them and he'd take them the next day..
The next day he forgot them, so did she.. In the evening he called and scolded her for not giving him the bill. He blamed her for the fine he'd have to pay, just because she was stupid enough to get the bills from the car. She din't know what to do. She got them up thinking he wouldn't have to go till the parking to get them. She thought he had forgotten them.. but anyways she got blamed... She kept the bills at his disk..
The next day she asked him if he had paid the bill, to which he replied bluntly that he din't. All he wanted to do was to clarify certain details... so all the anger for nothing she thought... she had almost cried over the previous evening..
The next day she asked him about the bill. The reply was straight and simple.. The issue had been clarified and no, it din't have anything to do with the office timings as he was to pay it online. And he was not even going to pay it before his pay day..
She wasn't left with any words..
Neither with any more self respect..
Tears flowed....

Sometimes..

Sometimes life just doesn't move the way you expect,
Sometimes the road is full of potholes,
Sometimes there are no roses , just thorns,
Sometimes there is no silver lining to the dark clouds,
Sometimes no matter how much you try whatever you do turns out to be incorrect,
Sometimes no matter how much you work , you won't get any appreciations,
Sometimes the maze you are stuck in will never have a way out,
Sometimes the game you play will always be won by the opponent,
Sometimes you won't have a say in your own life,
Sometimes people will be always be cruel and not care for you,
Sometimes you'll be stuck in between decisions which are both equally important,
Sometimes your life's biggest happiness will not be taken in consideration,
Sometimes you'll be left alone , crying to yourself,
Sometimes you'll find yourself with no way to move ahead on,
Sometimes you'll realize the relationship you think you are in, is a one sided one,
Sometimes you'll have no options in life,
Sometimes life will be so harsh that your tears will dry,
Sometimes you will have nothing else but pity for yourself,
Sometimes all you'll have is broken confidence and lost self respect,
Sometimes you'll paste that plastic smile just to let people think you are happy,
Sometimes the tide will always be strong whenever you wander near,
Sometimes there will be no stars to cheer you up when you glance in the night sky,
Sometimes you'll cry silent tears,
Sometimes there will be no one to wipe your tears,
Sometimes you'll feel you are a liability,
Sometimes all you'll have is sadness and you'll spread it around,
Sometimes the cartoons you draw will end up looking sad no matter how much you try,
Sometimes you won't be able to express yourself and the incomplete blogs would lie in the drafts,
Sometimes missed calls will stay unreturned and messages unanswered,
Sometimes life will be full of unanswerable questions,
Sometimes all you can do is sulk and repent,
Sometimes you'll be scolded for no mistake of your own,
Sometimes you'll be responsible for every wrong,
Sometimes no matter how much you love, all you'll get is hatred...

Hope such sometimes stay for some time and not become a lifetime...
Coz... at such times.. all you can do is QUIT!!

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Good bye Google reader! Hello Feedly!!

Goodbye Google Reader..
You will be thoroughly missed...
You were the only reason I met so many nice people and continued reading the jewels they wrote...
You are the only reason I could come back to a part of me which I had lost somewhere in the fight of engineering/job... the reader in me lives because of you :)

Hello Feedly!!
Now that I have imported my google reader data here, you have become an integral part of my life :)
I so hope I can update myself and read all the blogs I had missed over :)

Thankyou CM!! Your advice worked..


Thursday, March 20, 2014

I want google reader back..........

I am missing google reader..
Reading blogs was so easier then...
I want it back....

Be your own sunshine!

Heya peepz..
Long back when ever there were things in my mind, I'd either write them down on paper or draw stuff and then forget about them.. Then blogging happened.. Thanks to Noor.. and then I met so many people who'd cheer me up when sad, be a part of my happiness.. I derive strength when I read your blogs, my tears flow when you cry and I become super excited when you are happy..
No more do I feel the pressure of keeping things in my heart as I can put them all down here! It empties my heart and soothes my soul...

Today, I am feeling happy :)
I always tell myself to be my own sunshine.. coz if you can't make yourself happy, nobody and nothing else can!
It's difficult! But then God does give you reasons to smile and people who give you reasons too and then you shine bright!

I was feeling blue but NN [I have written about our awesome cake baking experience over here] instantly cheered me up! There's something about some people that instantly draws you to them.. the magnetic effect..

So today I am in the best of my moods... bright yellow shining like a sun literally!
Am wearing her cute yellow shirt with "Garfield" shouting out loud "Good looks are everything"
We both share our love for garfield...
And I have painted my nails an awesome pink
And I am wearing my fav blue eye liner!!
And here's the icing on the cake.. today morning NN was super cute and straightened my hair and I am loving it!!!
Yeeyyeyeyeyye :)
I absolutely love straight hair but cannot get them.. and that's not all.. they are still straight like 6 hours after she did this magic!! Thanku NN, you made my day!

Am shining!!!

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Stupid Observations!

A very very stupid post ahead... Please avoid and ignore if busy!
  1. "Tune maari entriyan to dil me baji ghantiyaan rey ton ton ton ton"
    Seen this song peepz? I cannot take my eyes off Ranveer, I mean he is dancing with such vigour and such is his body language and style that I just cannot help but ignore Arjun Kapoor. He looks like background... I wouldn't even know that he exists as a hero in the film!
    Stupid observation right!!
  2. On the contrary, am loving Arjun Kapoor in the "2 States" promo.. He is looking so Chetan Bhagatishhhh.. The "PUNJABI puttar" with those geeky glasses and a HOT HOT girfriend :P
  3. Seen the promos for "Mai tera hero".. the song "Tera dhyan kidhar hai, tera hero idhar hai".. Such an awesome pack Varun Dhawan looks.. awesome expressions, dance moves! I mean each time I see the song, I cannot move my eyes off him.. If there is someone after Shahid Kapoor who can do the tapori kinda dance well, it's Varun!!
  4. I like Sonam Kapoor's style! She is a stylista, but I don't know how much is her share in deciding what she wears in the films she acts.. Saw the movie "Aisha" [yawn..] only for the clothes... Now I wanna see "Bevkufiyann" for the same reason and also for the cutie pie Ayushmann and obviously Rishi Kapoor.. but people say it's a bad idea.. Killer heels and pencil skirts!! Drooling over Sonam's clothes already!
  5. Have you seen Arvind Kejriwal on the T.V. during interviews/other appearences? You must have obviously. I have no clue why he is always sneezing/coughing, that too straight at the camera!!
    Bade log, bade log!!
Told ya!! It's a stupid post!

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Feeling Blue!


Feeling blue..
Feeling blue..
Feeling blue....
My heart says, can't be, can't be true..
Oh me!
can't be true..
My heart says, can't be, can't be true..


Jaane kya chahe mann bawaraa...
Jaane kya chahe mann bawaraa...
Akhiyan mere savan chala..
Akhiyan mere savan chala...

Song of my soul!

Yaar mangiyasi rabba maine roke
kedi main khudaai mang layi..
kedi main khudaai mang layi

Mar jaan de mar jaan de
Mar jaan de kisi da maino hoke
kedi main khudaai mang layi..
kedi main khudaai mang layi

Kiniya duavan manga koi vi na mani jaaye
Kiniya duavan manga koi vi na mani jaaye
Kaanu roz roz de ve sanu dhoke
kedi main khudaai mang layi..

Pyaar mera kar rabba mere hawale
Yaar bina dil mera kaun sambhale..
Cheez apni hi maangi maine tujhse
Kedi main parayi mang layi..

Mera yeh naseeba hai meri nahi sunta
Sapno ke jaal to yeh roz roz bunta
Kabhie sun le tu meri bhi duhai
Kedi main parayi mang layi..

Mar jaan de mar jaan de
Mar jaan de kisi da maino hoke
kedi main khudaai mang layi..
kedi main khudaai mang layi

The atrocities of love!

Love!
A four letter word, which can change your life forever - for good or for bad!
I am stupid when it comes to love.
Someone loves you, you love them back, then they stop loving you but how do you do the same?
If a two lane traffic suddenly becomes one lane without you knowing it and you are on the other side of the road and so so bad at traffic sense, how'd you handle it?
Tears follow more tears and then some more till they dry, but next time they start again.
It's better not to love at all than to love and lose, and that too when the loss is the person being with you all the time but still not there to support you!
Life is a difficult games and for a non-player it can really throw challenges.. so what do you do - become a player or just let go!
In both the cases, it burdens your own soul... lost self-confidence, lack of self-respect, anxiety, depression...
It's like walking in a blind alley, can't enjoy the journey, don't know the destination..
Fear grips, words cease to come out, lips are better sealed.. but till when can you live like this..
Go with the flow, adjust with the high and low tides or break away and fly to an unknown destination.. not that the current destination is a known one...
Break or make...
Continue or disrupt..
Be or not to be...
Do or not to do..

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Updates Updates!!

A lot has been happening in life..
A mixture of good and bad.. Each time I see a dark cloud, I try and find out the silver lining around it. Let's see how long this approach works..
  • The other day I forgot to wash my coffee mug @ office desk, so just filled it with water and left for the day.The next day found the mug shining clean in the pantry :) Somebody was thoughtful enough to wash it for me!! Now that's what we call "GOOD HOUSEKEEPING"

  • I saw a horrid accident just seconds after the impact.. :| Am praying that everybody is fine. The bikes were badly shattered.. Fortunately, as it happened right in front of the office gate, the security guards played good Samaritans and took care of the situation - right from the people to police to ambulance to the bikes! Kudos guys!

  • Work and environment in office has hit an all time low. Don't know what I am working on and what for! New people are being recruited in the team with absolutely no existing work.. There have been no promotions , no appreciations , no onsite for the AAM-AADMI.. But for the manager-ko-butter-lagao population , life's good and I don't fall in this category.. :S Disgusting..

  • Need to start reading,writing,painting,drawing... HUH!! I have become such a bore.. all work and no play has made me a dull girl..

  • I have become over sensitive from the last few days [Blame PMS!!] and have been crying for no reasons at all.. and for reasons I have been crying a lot.. My eyes are paining and I try and stare at the screen to write this post..

  • Joined the office gym.. been a week.. let's see how long I carry on.. I hope I do.. the adding kilos and extending inches have already made me super conscious and hurt my self respect...

  • Don't know what's with acne and me.. I din't get them as a teenager and now they are sprouting like mushrooms on my face, arms,back... I am hating it already :| Life sucks with acne.. Have finally switched to using Neem face wash.. hope it works..

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