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Merry Christmas!!

Dashing through the snow
In a one-horse open sleigh
O'er the fields we go
Laughing all the way
Bells on bobtail ring
Making spirits bright
What fun it is to ride and sing
A sleighing song tonight!

Jingle bells, jingle bells,
Jingle all the way!
Oh what fun it is to ride
In a one-horse open sleigh!!

Merry Christmas guys!!
If I could, I would paint the town red and white :) Coz I cannot , I am wearing my red pants and my pretty white lace top!! And I had an awesome lunch with the gurlies :) Sizzlers and sizzling brownie!!
The only bad being I have a working day and have loads of work to do. All my friends and family are on holiday... and here I am working @ office!

How are you guys?
How are the celebrations going on?


Why oh why!!

Why is the kurti I liked not present in the online catalogue,
If it is present, why is it not on sale?
If it is on sale, why is it not present in my size?
If it is present in my size, why don't they deliver where I stay?
If they do deliver where I stay, why is there a delivery charge?

Why oh why!!

Why do you mention that 3 shoes for 999/-?
If you do mention it, why doesn't the discount apply on selection?
If it applies on selection on a set of ok-types footwear, why aren't they available in my shoe size?
If they are available in my shoe size, why aren't they available in colors I want?

Why oh why!!

Ended up buying nothing for myself :|

Munching on fennel seeds

Do you also drink water on eating fennel seeds[saunf] and enjoy the after taste and cool and then eat more fennel seeds and then drink more water and repeat the process till you are satisfied with it or till the fennel seeds in your palm end??
I do.. every single week day post lunch and snacks in office!!


Dance as if no one is watching!!

There are so many posts in my drafts mode, some needing just a touch up and some a write up... but this one needs to be written , right now right here!!
This is what music does to me...

I am waiting for the bus and plug in my headphones. One of my favorite dance number is on, I hear it once and it doesn't satisfy me, it never does! I turn off the radio and move to the music player with the album on repeat mode.. Once in office, the music fever is still on and I am almost at the verge of dancing in the lift.. No I am not a good dancer and yes I was the only one in the lift... The fever is on when I am applying my lip gloss and I quickly do a few moves in front of the mirror.... wooooooooooo..... That's what music does to me...

Just came back to my desk and the songs are still on repeat mode and I am enjoying every bit of it..
Am I the only odd one out or does it happen to you?
I feel intoxicated by music...
Do you too?


I walk with my heart in my hands, Ready to give love to all.
You came,
Made me feel special…
I gave my heart to you..
Little did I know, you’d take the liberty to break it..
And then give my broken heart back to me..
You smile with the world,
Laugh on their jokes..
For me all you have is bad words and tears..
The unrest grows,
Tears come no more…
Why should I anymore care for you,
Why should I bother?
Why should I live with the pain, when there’s a better world to go!
With heavy hands I pick up the pieces,
The memories shattering me even more…
The broken pieces pierce, the blood flows… so do the tears…
The memories I cherish come back to me…
But the pain is unbearable..
Should I let time heal and carry on or should I just move ahead and never look back!
The answer has never been simple, it never will be!
But a single life I have and that I gotta live…

Cannot wait all my life for that smile or that twinkle in your eye..
Cannot wait all my life for that touch or that cuddle…
Cannot wait all my life to get love…


Lost in your thoughts,
Time comes to a stand still..
Sorrows bring tears,
Smiles widen with the happiness!
I changed,
You changed!
All left with me are the memories..
Memories I cherish and hold onto..
Memories I live for,
Thinking maybe some day..
They'd be our present not our past...

Lost in your thoughts,
Time comes to a stand still..
Tears flow for the times we have missed, for the times we fought!
The cold breeze dries away the tears, soothes and promises a better future.
All left with me are the memories..
Memories I cherish and hold onto..
Memories I live for,
Thinking maybe some day..
They'd be our present not just our past...

To "My Man"..

The curtains swayed, the shining moon casting its shadow on your face.You curl up and cuddle the pillow. I pulled the comforter over you, a ritual I do every night. The warmth makes you feel good. As the curtains and the moon play hide and seek, I stare at your face, something I can get never enough of. You look at peace, innocent like a baby.. Behind this serene and youthful face is the man who takes over the burden of the house EMI, the car loan, work load and above all he handles me - be it in my worse times or my best or when I am just being me or when I am throwing tantrums! As I continue thinking about us, the memory lane doesn't look like a bed of roses, it never has been, the thorns prick badly and I need to stop thinking about the bad, but then how can you appreciate the good if you haven't seen the bad. I repent on the follies I did, at the same time forgive you for what wrongs you have done to me. After all, it is about accepting each other with the differences, a…

Suggest Suggest....

Hey all you wonderful people out there… Image Courtesy : The one and only I need to take a holiday… some much needed rest… The last week on November from the 22nd November till the 30th. Suggest a nice place…!!!
Goa is what is the default location, Jaipur/Udaipur are looking good to me.. any more suggestions from the blogosphere??

The client visit...

If you are in I.T. or related to someone here, you’d know about clients coming over to India offices. To me it’s always been analogous to coming to office early, fancy lunches [which you’d just hear about maybe coz you are too low in the hierarchy] or going shopping with them to those fancy stores which sell clothes with Indian embroidery or other items which can be tagged “Indian”.
    A member from the client team came over today and is gonna stay over for 2 weeks. We knew he was coming but when/where/how wasn’t know till today morning. Today’s sunshine saw our offshore manager in office at 9am… like 9 am!!! He doesn’t really come to this part of our office, this secluded and confined place. Read about this office here! We knew something was wrong as he gave me a rude stare when I was dunking my oatmeal cookies into my cuppa. And by the time I enjoyed the dunken magic, another senior team member came to the stair case, which we now call our cafeteria and told me to go…

Growing up or growing old or just growing bore...

1.A couple of grey hair smiling gently on the scalp 2.Hair volume reducing every day 3.Slight fine lines on the face 4.Inches and pounds adding up 5.Need to rest on weekends rather than going out 6.Preferring online shopping over the huge league of malls 7.No window shopping 8.No sense less calls, just talking sense 9.Getting angry with the maid over ignoring the dirt 10.Being unhappy with the cook coz he cooked something unexpected over telling him politely 11.Thinking nonstop of the future rather than living in the present 12.Adding a new album in my music gallery which reads “Peace” after a lot of albums “Rock”, “Hip Hop”, “Honey Singh”… etc and hearing “Peace” when I do actually hear music… 13.Forgetting headphones at home and not feeling bad about it 14.Not having configured the radio after getting a new phone even when its 2 long months 15.No adrenaline rush on getting/buying a gift 16.No hurry to download that song which I loved seeing on the T.V. 17.No worry when someone is wearing the same t…


I stopped myself from writing this post.. I din't want to crib about my office anymore... But then this is it.. Cannot digest anymore of it...

There is a different wing at our office dedicated to working for Microsoft. People here are worshipped by some stupid people at the other offices and when I was interviewed for a post here , everybody thought I am lucky! I din't wanna come here, not that I am scared or I am not technically strong.. it's just that the culture here did not match my expectations. I had a series of discussions with all people I could to try and avoid this situation.. but as always din't get any help and had to join this office.

Now to describe this office - It's like a 4 storeyed bungalow but just badly designed. There is a single room on each floor and there are wooden dividers which divide it into 6 cubes seating 4 each. As if the office space isn't small enough the cube heights are such that the manager can actually stand with his arms r…


So when you are going on and blabbering and telling me and giving me your advise, I am mentally munching and showing you the middle finger

#MiddleFinger #IrritatingPeople #Don'tNeedYourAdvise #StopTalking #FOff

Gals will be gals!!

One of my friends [Calling her SK on the blogosphere] purchased a beautiful anarkali suit online. We were a bit hesitant while ordering it coz no doubt it was too beautiful and aptly priced but buying it online looked risky, but then we being we , ordered it! When the delivery was received we couldn't help but go awwwwwwwwwwwwww as the beauty of the suit!! It is awesomeee...

Happiness is... ordering an anarkali suit online and it being exactly what you expected!!

So when both of us were going gaga about the suit and SK was feeling like a princess already without even having it stitched, following is the conversation we had.

A lil' more background - I was asking her to get it stitched and wear it soon so I could see her in it and she was suggesting I'd rather wear it coz she was waiting for appropriate occasion to wear it!!

Her[1:35 PM]: tu pehen lena

Me[1:35 PM]: heheh

Her[1:35 PM]: but mera tujhe ayega nai

Me[1:35 PM]: nahi aayega

Her [1:35 PM]: :(
tera figure sexy he na mere s…

I scream , you scream just for ice-cream!!

No, this post isn't about the new flavor of ice-cream I tasted.. for that instance I don't remember I last time I even tried ice-cream... thanks for the ever multiplying pounds and inches!! But this has something to do with ice-cream, hence the name..

There is a Naturals ice-cream corner on the road back home from office, and no I don't remember ever stopping them to slurp on the tasty devil.. but anyways. For those who don't know or haven't tried, Naturals is an ice-cream brand who boast of natural ice-creams and I absolutely love the Mango ice-cream there, you will too...
So, we'd been returning from office one day and got stuck in traffic right in front of Naturals. The shop is adjoining the gate of a big housing society and often I'd look at the guards at the society gate and imagine how they'd want to eat ice-cream every time they saw someone eating. There was a group of young ladies eating ice-cream and one of the guards was looking at them.. one…

About lunches!!

We are served lunch at office. The lunch hours last from 12:00 noon to 2:15 PM. Our company offices are located at four different locations in the city and I have worked at each of these locations. 2:15 is the hard stop and even if you are a second late then good bye lunch! Some of the serving staff is rude enough to start packing the food when you are trying to fill your plate.. and believe me it is rude.. very rude.. they may have their timelines, that I do understand but it is still rude!!
I was in a compulsory training with 8 other colleagues which went from 12:30 to 2:30. On usual days, the trainer would leave us by 2:00, giving us enough time to have our lunches! This particular day the training stretched and we were late for lunch. Just to try our luck, we visited the cafeteria to see if you could get anything to eat; though we knew we could still meet rude faces like in the other 3 locations! We entered inside and saw the cafeteria staff having lunch with their head. As soon …

Need to write!

I have not been lazy.. It's just that I don't know what to write about... I so much should!
I haven't been reading much, not painting or drawing.. life is just going down one level every day..
So, don't really know what to scribble!
But anyways coz I need to start, writing this song I am hearing right now..
Hopefully will take up some challenge so that I come back on track!

Saare sapne kahin kho gaye Haaye hum kya se kya ho gye!
Dil se tanhayee ka dard jeeta Kya kahein humpe kya kya na beeta Tum na aaye magar jo gaye Haaye hum kya se kya ho gaye!
Tumne humse  kahin thi jo baatein Unko dohrati hain gum ki raatein Tumse milne din to gye Haaye hum kya se kya ho gaye!
Koi shikwa na koi gila hai Tumse kab humko ye gum mila hai Haan naseeb apne hi so gye
Haaye hum kya se kya ho gye
Remember this song? Like it?
What's up with you fellow bloggers?

Unfortunately.. me!

I am dumb when it comes to people and relationships.
People actually do bad things to me and then all they need to is to smile or talk nicely to me once and my heart melts.. just for it to be repeated all over again!
This unfortunately is ME! and no matter what I do I just cannot rise above this.
Why do I get hurt at such small things and if I do get hurt why and how in the world do I forgive someone so quickly and easily...? Why oh why?
I end up hurting myself innumerable times I do this!
I gotta learn not to trust anybody but myself..
I gotta learn to stand for myself...

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone...

Letting go..

Why is it so difficult to let go of things?
Why cannot we forget all the bad, the sorrows , the dark times?
Why do they keep coming back like nightmares?
Why does yesterday haunt today and make tomorrow unbearable?
Why the desire to cry?
Why the need to stay alone?
Why cannot it be all smiles and no tears?
Why is there no "delete the past" button ?
Why does the mind have to refresh what I don't really want to remember?
Why so many why's when all I wanna be is happy?

So many questions, absolutely no answer...
The journey is long and I am tired.. wanna rest..

'D' #A to Z Challenge

Dad... i miss u so much.. i am not strong.. i am a weak gal and i need u to hold me each time i fall... but u r no where near to do that.. why r the distances between us so far that i cannot even talk to you... i am dying to be with u... for u to hold me and tell me everything will be fine... the date still haunts me... our bike... the marks on the road, u,the hospital, the reports, the fir,the death certificate,the court cases, the life insurances... y did u leave us like this dad?? y dad? i need an answer...

This post is a part of the A-Z blogging challenge.

'C' #A to Z Challenge

'C' is for 'Cindy'

Continuing our tradition of celebrating birthday's at 00:00, I was surprised when Dad did not turn up on my birthday till 11:45pm.. He came late, woke me up and wished me a happy birthday! but I was too sleepy and angry to respond. The next morning he told me to peep under my bed for my gift. To my surprise there was a huge gift pack, almost my size :) It took me an hour to carefully open the beautiful git wrap and to my complete surprise inside lay 'Cindy' , peacefully sleeping. My doll.... my sized doll! She smells awesome, that sweet plastic smell :) She slept with me, changed into my clothes when I wanted to wash hers and even sat on the dinning table for family lunch..
Awww.... I love you Dad and I love you Cindy!!
This post is a part of the A-Z blogging challenge.

'B' #A to Z Challenge

'B' is for 'BIG BANG THEORY'.....

In love with the big bang theory show! Its was a custom for K and me to come home, cook and then eat food while watching this show... And no, it din't end at one show, it went on and on till our eyes drooped... Runs and re-runs of the same episodes.. and now we have almost learnt the dialogs :P and say them along when we see them! And this is not all, the mother too has been dragged in the dinner shows and now even she knows Penny and Sheldon!!

This post is a part of the A-Z blogging challenge.

'A' #A to Z Challenge

'A' is for 'ANGER'
I am angry.. very very angry...
And I have no way out but to keep mum and carry on...
When I registered for the challenge and thought about the word I'd choose was "AWESOME"... but I am so angry that this just seems apt..
I am angry and I wanna blast out at you, for every wrong you are doing to me.. knowingly or unknowingly you have no idea how much this hurts! [I guess you do know you hurt me , that only makes you exponentially increase the hurt and harm]
No songs are soothing me, no words are making me calm, absolutely nothing is making this anger go.. but I know I don't have a choice.. I know I will have to let go.. I know I cannot tell you anything.. I know you won't hear... All I wanna know is whether you are worth all this pain...
Sad [for me, happy for you] but now my heart no more beats to the beats of love!

This post is a part of the A-Z blogging challenge.

The bill

She unlocked the car and saw the bills on the seat. Thinking he'd forgotten them she bought them to her work desk and asked him if he needed them. He answered in the negative telling her it was past office timings and it wouldn't be possible to pay them then.
When he dropped her home, she asked him if he'd keep the bills. He said she could keep them and he'd take them the next day..
The next day he forgot them, so did she.. In the evening he called and scolded her for not giving him the bill. He blamed her for the fine he'd have to pay, just because she was stupid enough to get the bills from the car. She din't know what to do. She got them up thinking he wouldn't have to go till the parking to get them. She thought he had forgotten them.. but anyways she got blamed... She kept the bills at his disk..
The next day she asked him if he had paid the bill, to which he replied bluntly that he din't. All he wanted to do was to clarify certain details... so a…


Sometimes life just doesn't move the way you expect,
Sometimes the road is full of potholes,
Sometimes there are no roses , just thorns,
Sometimes there is no silver lining to the dark clouds,
Sometimes no matter how much you try whatever you do turns out to be incorrect,
Sometimes no matter how much you work , you won't get any appreciations,
Sometimes the maze you are stuck in will never have a way out,
Sometimes the game you play will always be won by the opponent,
Sometimes you won't have a say in your own life,
Sometimes people will be always be cruel and not care for you,
Sometimes you'll be stuck in between decisions which are both equally important,
Sometimes your life's biggest happiness will not be taken in consideration,
Sometimes you'll be left alone , crying to yourself,
Sometimes you'll find yourself with no way to move ahead on,
Sometimes you'll realize the relationship you think you are in, is a one sided one,
Sometimes you'll have …

Good bye Google reader! Hello Feedly!!

Goodbye Google Reader..
You will be thoroughly missed...
You were the only reason I met so many nice people and continued reading the jewels they wrote...
You are the only reason I could come back to a part of me which I had lost somewhere in the fight of engineering/job... the reader in me lives because of you :)

Hello Feedly!!
Now that I have imported my google reader data here, you have become an integral part of my life :)
I so hope I can update myself and read all the blogs I had missed over :)

Thankyou CM!! Your advice worked..

I want google reader back..........

I am missing google reader..
Reading blogs was so easier then...
I want it back....

Be your own sunshine!

Heya peepz..
Long back when ever there were things in my mind, I'd either write them down on paper or draw stuff and then forget about them.. Then blogging happened.. Thanks to Noor.. and then I met so many people who'd cheer me up when sad, be a part of my happiness.. I derive strength when I read your blogs, my tears flow when you cry and I become super excited when you are happy..
No more do I feel the pressure of keeping things in my heart as I can put them all down here! It empties my heart and soothes my soul...

Today, I am feeling happy :)
I always tell myself to be my own sunshine.. coz if you can't make yourself happy, nobody and nothing else can!
It's difficult! But then God does give you reasons to smile and people who give you reasons too and then you shine bright!

I was feeling blue but NN [I have written about our awesome cake baking experience over here] instantly cheered me up! There's something about some people that instantly draws you to them.. …

Stupid Observations!

A very very stupid post ahead... Please avoid and ignore if busy! "Tune maari entriyan to dil me baji ghantiyaan rey ton ton ton ton"
Seen this song peepz? I cannot take my eyes off Ranveer, I mean he is dancing with such vigour and such is his body language and style that I just cannot help but ignore Arjun Kapoor. He looks like background... I wouldn't even know that he exists as a hero in the film!
Stupid observation right!!On the contrary, am loving Arjun Kapoor in the "2 States" promo.. He is looking so Chetan Bhagatishhhh.. The "PUNJABI puttar" with those geeky glasses and a HOT HOT girfriend :P Seen the promos for "Mai tera hero".. the song "Tera dhyan kidhar hai, tera hero idhar hai".. Such an awesome pack Varun Dhawan looks.. awesome expressions, dance moves! I mean each time I see the song, I cannot move my eyes off him.. If there is someone after Shahid Kapoor who can do the tapori kinda dance well, it's Varun!!I lik…

Feeling Blue!

Feeling blue..
Feeling blue..
Feeling blue....
My heart says, can't be, can't be true..
Oh me!
can't be true..
My heart says, can't be, can't be true..

Jaane kya chahe mann bawaraa...
Jaane kya chahe mann bawaraa...
Akhiyan mere savan chala..
Akhiyan mere savan chala...

Song of my soul!

Yaar mangiyasi rabba maine roke
kedi main khudaai mang layi..
kedi main khudaai mang layi

Mar jaan de mar jaan de
Mar jaan de kisi da maino hoke
kedi main khudaai mang layi..
kedi main khudaai mang layi

Kiniya duavan manga koi vi na mani jaaye
Kiniya duavan manga koi vi na mani jaaye
Kaanu roz roz de ve sanu dhoke
kedi main khudaai mang layi..

Pyaar mera kar rabba mere hawale
Yaar bina dil mera kaun sambhale..
Cheez apni hi maangi maine tujhse
Kedi main parayi mang layi..

Mera yeh naseeba hai meri nahi sunta
Sapno ke jaal to yeh roz roz bunta
Kabhie sun le tu meri bhi duhai
Kedi main parayi mang layi..

Mar jaan de mar jaan de
Mar jaan de kisi da maino hoke
kedi main khudaai mang layi..
kedi main khudaai mang layi

The atrocities of love!

A four letter word, which can change your life forever - for good or for bad!
I am stupid when it comes to love.
Someone loves you, you love them back, then they stop loving you but how do you do the same?
If a two lane traffic suddenly becomes one lane without you knowing it and you are on the other side of the road and so so bad at traffic sense, how'd you handle it?
Tears follow more tears and then some more till they dry, but next time they start again.
It's better not to love at all than to love and lose, and that too when the loss is the person being with you all the time but still not there to support you!
Life is a difficult games and for a non-player it can really throw challenges.. so what do you do - become a player or just let go!
In both the cases, it burdens your own soul... lost self-confidence, lack of self-respect, anxiety, depression...
It's like walking in a blind alley, can't enjoy the journey, don't know the destination..
Fear grips, wor…

And Odie joins Garfield for some fun...


Updates Updates!!

A lot has been happening in life..
A mixture of good and bad.. Each time I see a dark cloud, I try and find out the silver lining around it. Let's see how long this approach works..
The other day I forgot to wash my coffee mug @ office desk, so just filled it with water and left for the day.The next day found the mug shining clean in the pantry :) Somebody was thoughtful enough to wash it for me!! Now that's what we call "GOOD HOUSEKEEPING"
I saw a horrid accident just seconds after the impact.. :| Am praying that everybody is fine. The bikes were badly shattered.. Fortunately, as it happened right in front of the office gate, the security guards played good Samaritans and took care of the situation - right from the people to police to ambulance to the bikes! Kudos guys!
Work and environment in office has hit an all time low. Don't know what I am working on and what for! New people are being recruited in the team with absolutely no existing work.. There have been no…

Time pass..

And this is what happens when you need to complete the required number of hours @ office and you have absolutely no work [read *rest period* aftermath of a passing storm and eerie silence before another]

Bullet Point Post

Construct a BRT for a route which has like a total of ten buses to and fro.Close the BRT for obvious reasons!!Start constructing road divisions around it and let the boulders stay to harm the passengersUse the closed BRT for as a skating ground for your kids or rather for jogging in the morningDump garbage here!! Who cares!Sleep on the BRT rather than the footpath (No risks of Salman Khan driving over you! :P)Use the BRT to park your cars.. viola!! Free parkingWhy does the interview I don't go to end up being like the *easiest*... angry :{Why do people die, especially the ones you know or related to people you know!Why doesn't my eggless cake rise though it still tastes yummm!!Why do I say things which I know I shouldn't?Why does the smudge less kohl smudge on the eye lids but not come out even while washing with face wash!Why does lunch @ office suck real bad, when I am not carrying home made lunch?Why oh why does the nail paint remover end when I have really shabby looki…

And the saga of not getting promoted continues...

You hog like a hog..
Work on technologies absolutely new...
Trod on untrodden paths..
See dreams your managers show you..

Promotion Time..
You are shown a graph
Told statistics
And then happily denied a promotion..

People come after and get promoted..
People join with you,be on bench/long holidays and still get promoted..
You are a year behind when you actually did deserve a promotion..

I am sad..
This is so not done...
I have worked a lot..
I have appreciations to my credit, but no promotion..
A year late than my batch mates... it feels bad and low :(
I have worked a lot.. I guess that is my mistake..
I shouldn't really have..
Now if I leave this team, the next manager wouldn't know my skills and hence I won't get promoted...
If I don't leave this team, I still don't know what reason I'll get next...